'Believing is Seeing'

I have been wanting to write a post about this since hearing it last weekend at Easter service.
The sermon was so moving that I cried through a lot of it, Mike even offered his sleeve for me to wipe my eyes and blow my nose on, LOL!
The service was beautiful,
and some of what the pastor spoke of, was all the evidence, throughout time, of Christ's existence and authenticity.
He gave so many examples that it would be too difficult to reiterate all of them now,
but it was profound.
I know that each of us have our own examples of the Lord showing Himself to us personal, but there was a part in the sermon that really struck me, at one point the pastor said,
"Most people say 'Seeing is believing', but shouldn't it be... BELIEVING is seeing?"
I found that so unbelievably prophetic, in more ways than one.
The fact that 'Seeing is believing' is a cliche in our society,
goes to show how many of us, if not most,
live our life thinking just that... SEEING..... is Believing.
It made me think of when Presley was born,
Upon finding out for certain, that Presley had Ds,
I vividly remember thinking...
'Lord, what did I do to deserve this?'
In the first few days, those 'dark hours', as I refer to them,
I remember actually thinking of specific actions of mine,
or choices I'd made, throughout my life,
that He could be punishing me for.
I didn't BELIEVE for a minute that there was anything positive about Presley's presence in my life.
But, you want to hear the irony in this?
IF my earthly father,
if my mother and father, here on earth,
were the ones responsible for choosing Presley for me,
walking into that hospital room and putting her in my arms...
I may have been taken a back by their choice,
I may have had some questions,
and certainly even, wondered 'why?' to some degree,
but never would I have thought they were punishing me.
I am so certain of my parents love for me,
their absolute and unwavering, want for me to have all that is good and perfect in life,
that I would have just known,
that in giving me Presley, that 'They must know something I don't know.'
I would have BELIEVED without seeing.
I have heard that the Lord loves us, so much more than our earthy parents ever could,
yet, in that moment, I doubted Him.
In that moment, and many other moments...
I couldn't SEE His plan for me, and I didn't have faith in Him.

Believing is seeing...

And, as for that question I so specifically remember asking a year ago,
'Lord, what did I do to deserve this?'
I still ask that question,
it just means something completely,
and totally different...

'Lord, what did I do to deserve this?'